February 08, 2008
“…Jesus said, ‘How can you expect the wedding guests to mourn as long as the bridegroom is with them?’…” (Matthew 9:15)
I write this posting today with a heavy heart.
Early this morning, I received a text message that a dear friend, a brother in our prayer group, General Nap de los Santos has passed away after months of battling with cancer. I am sure many of us are mourning today. Those from our prayer group. Those from the military. And those from his family, most especially. Somehow, the heart is wrung with overwhelming sadness, and the throat choked with great despair.
But you know what? Try to listen closely. Not with your ears but with your heart. Try to see clearly. Not with your eyes but with your soul.You will hear music. Echoing beyong the visible are shouts of glee and great rejoicing. There, across the great chasm which separates the living from the dead, a party is in progress. And in the middle of the dance, is one whose joy could not be contained: Our dear Kuya Nap (Older brother Nap). And why not? He has claimed his prize, and embraced his reward. He is home, not in some place, but with Someone — the one whom his heart has been beating for all these years.
That is why while we mourn, he rejoices. For as Jesus said in the Gospel today, “…‘How can you expect the wedding guests to mourn as long as the bridegroom is with them?’…”.
Fasting is necessary to create space for God in one’s life. His absence necessitates this. That is why life is the ultimate fasting for the journeying Christian. For one could only have but a glimpse of God in his life. For one could not just yet behold his God in all His glory. For one must simply content himself with a mere foretaste of the eternal joy that is to come. That holds true for all of us. That is why we fast. To hunger more of God so that we can want more of Him.
But not our dear Kuya Nap. His fasting has ended. His hunger has been satisfied. His thirst has been quenched. For He is now in the company of the “Bridegroom”, his Lord Jesus, for whom he lived his life.
I rest my computer keyboard quickly today to take some time to mourn. For that’s what the living ought to do…until our ultimate fasting ends one day when we breath our last.
To our dear Kuya Nap: Since you truly deserve the celebration up there, all I can say to you is this: Party On!
I remain, your friend in Christ,